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Back in the Hospital

After getting admitted to the hospital on Wednesday and discharged on Thursday for advanced monitoring of our little guy, I found myself back in the hospital again yesterday after my follow-up appointment.

I went in on Friday morning for another non-stress test {NST} and biophysical profile ultrasound {BPP}. The little guy’s NST went really well – the test measures his heart rate to ensure he’s not stressed and they want to see some accelerations in his heart rate that show he’s moving around and happy/content. While there weren’t many accelerations in that particular test, the baseline was really normal and the nurse seemed happy.

My BPP did not go as well. The ultrasound measures five things – the amniotic fluid levels, cord blood flow, small body movements {like flexion}, large body movements and practice breathing. During the 30 minute period they want to see 3 large movements and we only got 1 and he did not do any practice breathing. Therefore, he failed his BPP {he got a score of 4 out of 8}.

While I knew that they were still picking up the heart rate on the ultrasound it was scary to watch because I was repositioning myself, drinking water and the ultrasound tech was poking the baby and nothing would get him to wiggle around in there. He must have been sound asleep! Shortly after the ultrasound, one of the doctors came in and said she was really concerned and was sending me to the hospital again.

Long story short, the doctor on the floor at the hospital was the one who had discharged me the day before and she had no intention of keeping me overnight. She was really happy with the NST results and would do several hours of continuous monitoring of the baby’s heart rate, followed by another BPP last night. We were so optimistic that we would get out of there and be home shortly.

After several hours of really solid monitoring, the babe’s heart rate plummeted and it took him longer to recover than it had ever taken while he was on the monitor. Because of that, the new doc on the floor said she’s not playing around and taking any chances, so here we are, still in the hospital.

Yesterday was a pretty tough day emotionally with the two big scares and the doctors bringing up the true possibility of an immediate delivery {which would make him 9 weeks premature}, which would have likely been via an emergency c-section. Alex is such a trooper and amazing support and is really rooting for me and our little guy and is helping me stay strong. Things are looking up today, though.

I spent all night hooked up to the monitors and the heart rate was strong and steady throughout the night, so things are looking up today. The doctor allowed me to come off the continuous monitor and I’ll be monitored in shorter intervals today to make sure things look good, and if everything continues, I could head home tomorrow.

{Here's hoping this is one of many more belly photos with this little guy still inside!}

{Here’s hoping this is one of many more belly photos with this little guy still inside!}

At this point it’s impossible to know what to think and what to expect for either the short or long-term. If the baby’s heart rate continues to take dips during monitoring they’ll either keep me here for more monitoring or they’ll decide that the time has come to deliver the baby.

It’s a really tough situation to be in and it seems to have the doctors scratching their heads a bit, trying to figure out if he’s just rolling over on his umbilical cord, which could be a cause of the heart rate drops, or if there is something more going on and there is not enough reserve in the placenta for him to bounce back. There’s a life at stake and they aren’t willing to take many risks. We’re obviously hoping he’s got several more weeks inside to continue to grow and develop and that this is just a blip on the radar.

We really, really appreciate the support from you all – thank you! It means a lot to know there are so many people cheering for this little guy who the world hasn’t gotten to meet yet. We’ve already determined that he loves being in the spotlight!

Home from the Hospital!

It feels so good to be home – and home a day early, nonetheless! After my unexpected overnight stay in the hospital for additional monitoring of the baby’s heart rate I got the all-clear from the doctors to get discharged a bit early, but only with the promise of returning in the morning for a follow-up appointment, non-stress test {NST} and ultrasound.

The purpose of my stay in the hospital was to monitor the baby and make sure his heart rate was normal {110-160 BPM}. Overall, the baby’s heart rate looked really good over the 24 hour period that he was being monitored, so hopefully that keeps up!


What’s next for us and baby Allen:

  • Twice weekly NSTs to measure the baby’s heart rate
  • Once weekly biophysical profile ultrasound to measure the fluid levels and cord flow
  • Bi-weekly growth ultrasound scans to measure baby’s growth
  • Weekly or bi-weekly doctor’s appointments with my doctor as well as the specialists

Once either the fluid starts to diminish or the baby stops passing his NSTs or the baby stops growing the doctors will make the call that the time has come for me to be induced. I expect it will be sudden and will happen directly following one of my appointments {which are scheduled on Tuesdays and Fridays}.

The team of doctors all still seem very confident that we can get the baby to 34 weeks gestation before induction, and the hope is to go even further, but 37 weeks is the ultimate cutoff.

At this point, we’re playing a funny waiting game. Our “plan” is to get as much ready and done as we can in advance and then be ready for “game day” as I started calling it. The nursery is basically complete, and thanks to a very generous father, we now have our car seat and stroller, too. We’re stocked up on preemie and newborn diapers and clothes, we’ve got burp cloths, hats and swaddles and we’re set to go with all necessary feeding supplies. It was tremendously helpful to receive so many generous gifts from family and friends over the last few months and at my two showers to help get us ready for this little guy.

The big things that are left are really to make a bunch of freezer meals that we can have on hand for when the babe arrives, acquire necessary mama recovery/postpartum items and clothes, and finish up any projects around the house. We are in really good shape for his early arrival and that makes the whole process seem a little bit more manageable.

We really appreciate the support and encouragement from friends and family and are grateful for that, as well as the care we received in the hospital. We are feeling so fortunate to be in such good hands during this time. We are both confident and positive about the ultimate outcome of the situation.

Big Baby Update

We have some big news about baby Allen. Last week I had my regular doctor’s visit and when my doctor was measuring my fundal height {which is essentially the size of my belly} she discovered that it was rather small. It had been a bit small the week before, too, but not enough to sound the alarm bells. Last week I was measuring at the size of about 26.5 weeks, but it should have been closer to 30. Just to be safe, she ordered an ultrasound to further investigate.

As it so happens, the baby is indeed quite small, which was confirmed by an ultrasound last week and then another one today. Over the course of the last week I have been undergoing periodic monitoring and testing to learn more about what’s going on.

My doctor referred me to a team of fetal medical specialists and today I had my first visit there – they did a non-stress test {this measures the baby’s heart rate and looks for natural accelerations to show that the baby is moving and happy}, as well as an ultrasound and then a consultation with the specialist.

While the baby passed his non-stress test {NST} yesterday at a different clinic, today he did not. He had a big dip in his heart rate and because of that the doctor wanted to observe him for a longer period of time, so I’ve been admitted to the antepartum unit of the hospital for a minimum of 48 hours for more monitoring.


Here’s what we know:

  • Baby Allen is super tiny – he was in the 3rd percentile last week for his size. Right now he’s about 2.5 pounds and measuring about 2.5 weeks younger than his gestational age.
  • At this point, it seems that the cause of this is likely that the placenta isn’t able to provide enough nutrients to the baby to sustain normal growth. The size of the various body parts of the baby as measured by the ultrasound is consistent with this theory, so at this time it seems most likely.
  • Other causes can be a virus that I had and passed onto the baby, or chromosomal abnormalities in the baby, which are unlikely in my case, but they are running tests to rule them out.
  • The baby’s brain seems to have been spared and is growing at the expected rate. This is super good news!
  • My doctor and the fetal medical specialist doctor’s goal is for me to get to 34-36 weeks {by the doctor’s accounts I am 30 weeks and 3 days right now} before inducing me. 37 weeks would be the longest I’d be able to go.
  • An induction will happen when it is determined that it’s safer for the baby to be born than stay inside. Eventually there will be a point where the baby stops growing and that will be the turning point.
  • I am receiving steroid shots to help the baby’s lungs mature faster, since that’s one of the biggest complications of preemies.
  • If I get induced after 34 weeks the chances are high that it would be under the care of my regular doctor and at her hospital, but if I get induced prior to 34 weeks it will have to happen at the hospital I’m currently at because they have a higher level NICU to care for the baby.
  • Even if I have to be induced tomorrow there is a 98% survival rate for the baby at this point. The babe would have to spend several weeks in the NICU, but survival rate is high and long-term complications seem to be low.

The last I heard was that the doctor was really optimistic that I would get discharged after 48 hours and would be able to continue monitoring as an out-patient, via twice-weekly NSTs and once-weekly ultrasounds, and then be able to still deliver the baby at my preferred hospital after 34 weeks.

For now, we’re taking things one step at a time. We’ve known since last week that the chances that baby Allen would come early would be very high, but now that there’s certainty around that we are trying to get everything taken care of that we possibly can. I’m wrapping my head around the fact that we could literally have a baby at any point in time now. Ironically, our childbirth classes were supposed to start today, so I’m quite unprepared for the actual labor and delivery, but I was able to switch us into an all-day childbirth class on May 21st, so my fingers are crossed that we’ll make it to that point.

We truly are doing fine with the news. It’s a lot to process, but one of our best friends went through literally the same thing and had a healthy baby girl 2 weeks ago {at 37 weeks} and it’s comforting to have her support and hear her story and positive outcome. I’m extremely confident in the care I’m receiving and we are so fortunate to live in a city with excellent hospitals and fetal medicine. So, for the time-being, we’re getting mentally and physically prepared to meet this baby earlier than expected and also potentially deal with some time in the NICU.

Stay tuned for more updates as we have them!

Big Baby Shower Weekend

This past weekend my aunt Sarah graciously hosted a wonderful baby shower for me out here in Seattle. She has been working hard for the last few months to plan this shower from afar {she lives in Minnesota} for baby Allen. We had several family members travel out here to celebrate our babe – my aunt and my mom came from Minnesota and Alex’s mom, aunt Chris and nana came from Illinois. Given the family in town, we planned a lot of activities to spend time with them and keep them entertained, in addition to attending the baby shower.

baby shower w ladies

Everyone was essentially on their own to explore the city during the day on Thursday and Friday but met us at our house for fondue on Thursday evening and dinner at Bottlehouse on Friday night. We had a great time catching up and getting acquainted. Since my family is from Minnesota and Alex’s is from Illinois, they don’t get too many opportunities to spend time together.

{Nana was in love with our pets...}

{Nana was in love with our pets…}

{She even got Henry cuddles!}

{She even got Henry cuddles!}

{The two grandmas were enjoying coming up with the name they want the kid to call them... Donna, we're still waiting on you!}

{The two grandmas were enjoying coming up with the name they want the kid to call them… Donna, we’re still waiting on you!}


The ultimate purpose of everyone’s trip was to attend Saturday’s baby shower honoring our little babe. The shower was held in the dining room at a hotel in downtown Seattle. Everything was lovely – it was a nice small, intimate group and space, which made it quite enjoyable. The room was tastefully decorated with photos of both my family and Alex’s family to show the genes that our babe is coming from… Hopefully the kiddo gets the best ones from both sides!

{The mama-to-be with the grannies-to-be.}

{The mama-to-be with the grannies-to-be all heading off to the shower.}

{Based on my due date, I've got great grandbaby #11 cooking, though I've got a feeling #12 will appear first. Alex's cousin Tara's due date is just a few days after mine.}

{Based on my due date, I’ve got great grandbaby #11 cooking, though I’ve got a feeling #12 will appear first. Alex’s cousin Tara’s due date is just a few days after mine.}

{Photo op with my mom and aunt Sarah}

{Photo op with my mom and aunt Sarah}


The food at the shower was delicious – we had a spread of appetizers at the table, followed by the entree of our choice. Knowing that princess torte cakes are historically my birthday cake of choice, my aunt commissioned the restaurant to bake me a princess torte cake. It was beautiful!



Already baby Allen is quite spoiled. His family and friends stocked us up quite well with baby necessities, goodies and adorable outfits. At this point, I think other than the car seat and stroller, we have everything we truly need. A baby could survive in our house right now!


{New clothes for the little babe!}

{New clothes for the little babe!}

{During the shower, Alex and Ryan had some guy time with Ryan's 5-month old twin boys, Oliver and August... Alex is getting some great practice!}

{During the shower, Alex and Ryan had some guy time with Ryan’s 5-month old twin boys, Oliver and August… Alex is getting some great practice!}

The rest of the weekend went by really fast but we spent it continuing to enjoy spending time together. We had a nice dinner on Saturday evening, then met up early on Sunday morning for breakfast out in Woodinville, followed by a wine tasting. The weather was spectacular on Sunday and we spent most of the afternoon sitting outside in our backyard.

{Woodinville wine tasting on a sunny patio - not a bad way to spend the day!}

{Woodinville wine tasting on a sunny patio – not a bad way to spend the day!}




Sadly, all good things must come to an end, and between late Sunday night and Monday morning everyone headed back to the Midwest. It was so nice to spend the time with our moms, aunts and the only grandma we have left between us. Alex and I are so appreciative of them coming out to celebrate our little man and spend time with us and each other. It was a really memorable experience and we’ll be forever grateful to our family members who came out and my aunt Sarah for hosting such a nice baby shower.




Hello Third Trimester!

Holy cow… The third trimester has arrived! I have a feeling time is going to start FLYING. We’ve got lots of plans coming up and lots we still need to do to get ready for the arrival of baby Allen, but here’s what’s happening now.

{Here I am at 26 weeks...}

{Here I am at 26 weeks… belly is growing, growing, growing!}

Seven Month Stats:

  • “How are you feeling?”: Just fine!
  • Food cravings: None – I eat a lot, but it’s all standard fare.
  • Weight gain: 19 pounds. Supposedly weight gain tapers off a little bit in the third trimester, so I’m hoping to keep this to a minimum.
  • Baby’s heart rate: 132 beats per minute today.
  • Pregnancy symptoms: I’d say the worst are heartburn and nosebleeds. I also sound like I ran up 70 flights of stairs when I walk up a hill, thanks to the babe squishing my lungs. I’ve been getting a bit of a sore back lately after walking too far, and I’m definitely starting to tire more easily. I’ve still been sleeping really well and hoping that keeps up for as long as possible!
  • Doctor’s appointments: I had my 28-week visit today. Babe is doing well and is measuring on the small side at this point. I need to go back in within the next week for my Tdap shot, as well as my Rhogam shot {special shot because of my blood type} and have to get tested for gestational diabetes. For the next month and a half I will have appointments every two weeks, then around 34 weeks I’ll switch to weekly appointments. At my last doctor’s visit I was informed that the clinic is moving to a new location, which I am less than pleased with. It’s extremely inconvenient for me, so I’m really disappointed.
  • Medical concerns: None.
  • Exercise: Prenatal Pilates once a week and prenatal yoga at least once a week, along with two dog walks each day. Contemplating going for a short run this week!? The weather has been gorgeous so I’ve been walking to Pilates and yoga, which offers a nice added hilly walk.
  • Highlights at this point: Putting together the nursery has been really fun. We’ve done a lot to get ready for the kid this last month – each month it seems like it’s something different. Separately, I really enjoy feeling the little flutter in my belly when the babe is wiggling around in there.
  • What I’m excited for: Getting the nursery completed and our house ready for the babe, having both my family and Alex’s family coming out in just over a week for my baby shower, and getting closer to my due date…
  • Downsides at this point: See pregnancy symptoms.
  • Things I miss: I’ve been wanting more than my allotted one cup of coffee each day lately, so I do miss being able to drink as much coffee as I want. I also miss sleeping on my back, but I have been sleeping really well lately, which has been amazing. As much as I enjoy shopping, I miss not feeling like I always “need” something new, like a pair of shorts because I don’t have any maternity shorts, or a pair of maternity leggings for working out in, etc.
  • Things we’ve done to prepare for baby: Lots this month! We signed up for a PEPS group {parent education/social group for new parents} and have been continuing to read and talk about how to raise this blessed child. The big stuff in the nursery is almost complete – we just need to hang the decor on the walls once we get everything in place.
  • Name ideas: My lips are sealed but we have two top choices for a name and at this point we may wait to make the final choice until we meet him. My favorite changes each week!
  • Nursery ideas: Our nursery will be a modern mountain theme with soft grays and blues. It’s coming together quite nicely.
{Fun shot of the rocker and crib, along with our newest Glassybaby, in the shade of "Little Boy Blue" for our little boy.}

{Fun shot of the rocker and crib, along with our newest Glassybaby, in the shade of “Little Boy Blue” for our little boy.}

{Some fun prints I ordered for the nursery. The decor is coming along nicely.}

{Some fun prints and floating shelves I ordered for the nursery. The decor is coming along nicely.}

{Hello from Jackson and me today! Hanging out in my new comfy preggo outfit... Comfy is the theme these days!}

{Hello from Jackson and me today! Hanging out in my new comfy preggo outfit… Comfy is the theme these days!}

Six Months and Counting!

I can officially say “I’m six months pregnant!” now, which certainly sounds real! Now that I’ve reached that point, the most exciting thing is that the baby has reached the point of being viable outside of the womb. Hopefully he still won’t make his arrival until July!


Six Month Stats:

  • “How are you feeling?”: Still just fine… 🙂 I’ve been sleeping really well the last week or two and that has been amazing. I know that’s not going to last forever so I’m enjoying it while it does!
  • Food cravings: I feel like I eat constantly but I really haven’t ever gotten a major craving for anything. Cottage cheese is still my go-to snack.
  • Weight gain:12 pounds
  • Baby’s heart rate: 132 beats per minute
  • Pregnancy symptoms: A growing belly is about the biggest “symptom” I’m experiencing right now! I’ve had acid reflux for a while and I get REALLY winded walking up a hill or up the stairs, but otherwise, I feel great!
  • Doctor’s appointments: Had one today and my next one shouldn’t be until 28 weeks {so 4 weeks from now}.
  • Medical concerns: No concerns. I got my Zika test results yesterday and, as expected, they were negative. Around 28 weeks I’ll transition to having appointments every 2 weeks and I’ll have another ultrasound, get my Tdap and RhoGam shots and get tested for gestational diabetes, so I’ve got that to look forward to.
  • Exercise: I take Jackson for 2 walks a day, which is fantastic. In addition, I’ve been going to a prenatal yoga class once a week and a prenatal Pilates class once a week. I’d like to go to yoga more often but it’s hard to work it into my schedule. Once it stops raining I plan on walking to/from my classes for some extra cardio {a very hilly mile to both!}.
  • Highlights at this point: It’s been fun to start receiving gifts and things for our little man. It has been amazing to still being able to ski while being pregnant – I don’t feel pregnant while skiing {until I bend over!} and that’s nice. I love feeling the baby move – he’s been a wiggle worm lately. The first time I felt him move with certainty {around 21 weeks} I had the computer on my lap and was listening to Taylor Swift and felt him kick. I think we’ve got a future Swiftie on our hands!
  • What I’m excited for: Right now I’m really looking forward to putting the nursery together soon.
  • Downsides at this point: Really can’t think of anything?!
  • Things I miss: runny eggs, medium rare steak and drinking as much coffee as I want.
  • Things we’ve done to prepare for baby: We signed up for a birth class, which takes place in June. I bought an adorable onesie for him, but otherwise have been restraining. I just finished reading “Bringing up Bebe” and loved it. Now onto the next book…
  • Name ideas: My lips are sealed but we have two top choices for a name and at this point we may wait to make the final choice until we meet him.
  • Nursery ideas: Our nursery will be a modern mountain theme with soft grays and blues. We’ve got our crib and bookshelf and have ordered our rocker, so we’re making progress. Painting in our house should start next week and after that’s done we can start to transition the media room into the nursery and get things set up!
  • PSA: Per my doctor, if you are planning on spending time with this child once he arrives, please make sure that you’re up-to-date on your vaccines, particularly the Tdap! Consider this your warning 🙂
{21 weeks and all dressed up!}

{21 weeks and all dressed up!}

{Finally at 24 weeks I fit into my maternity workout jacket... headed to Pilates!}

{Finally at 24 weeks I fit into my maternity workout jacket… headed to Pilates!}

The Next Mr Allen!

We’ve officially reached the halfway point {well, halfway to my due date… who knows when the babe will actually arrive} and are overjoyed to announce we’ll be welcoming a little MAN into our family this summer! We found out in our ultrasound last week that we’re having a boy!


{Yes, yes, that is a picture of what you think it is.}

{The little guy's face!}

{The little guy’s face!}

{We weren't trying to get a picture with Jackson in it - he just showed up when Alex pulled out the camera, but that meant you can't really see the size of my belly that well because I wasn't quite prepared!}

{We weren’t trying to get a picture with Jackson in it – he just showed up when Alex pulled out the camera, but that meant you can’t really see the size of my belly that well because I wasn’t quite prepared!}

Five Month Stats:

  • “How are you feeling?”: (still the #1 question – yes I’m getting tired of it!) just fine, thank you!
  • Food cravings: Still loving cheese, particularly cottage cheese. No cravings per se. Salted caramel gelato is absolutely amazing, though.
  • Weight gain: 6 pounds
  • Baby’s heart rate: 137 beats per minute
  • Pregnancy symptoms: A growing belly! I’ve been sleeping a lot better the last few nights and have started to transition to sleeping on my side. I’ve been either feeling the baby move or getting some braxton-hicks contractions. Not really sure at this point!
  • Doctor’s appointments: Had my 19-week ultrasound last week and 20-week check-up yesterday. Everything looks great with baby!
  • Medical concerns: Our ultrasound ruled out microcephaly, but I’m awaiting the results back from some blood work to test if I ever had zika.
  • Highlights at this point: Finding out we’re having a boy was probably the most exciting moment of the pregnancy. It’s been so fun to imagine what our lives will be like with a son. Everything feels more concrete now. Just this week I’ve had kids and adults ask me if I was pregnant, so it’s been fun to actually look pregnant now. It still really depends on what I’m wearing though.
  • What I’m excited for: Obviously meeting the baby, but I’m looking forward to starting to put together the nursery. We still haven’t bought a single thing for him!
  • Downsides at this point: ?
  • Things I miss: Nothing much right now. Sometimes wine, not often though.
  • Things we’ve done to prepare for baby: Finally we finalized our “baby list” and made some big decisions about the baby stuff we intend on purchasing. We’ve started reading books about caring for babies and being parents of a newborn.
  • Name ideas: Send them our way! We have no idea what to name our boy.
  • Nursery ideas: Our nursery will be a modern mountain theme with soft grays and blues.
{Here is a better belly photo from 19 weeks.}

{Here is a better belly photo from 19 weeks.}

Four Months Down!

…and still a long way to go!

{17 weeks today!}

{17 weeks today! Not the best outfit for a belly photo, but at least you can see a little bump in there.}

Four Month Stats:

  • “How are you feeling?”: (#1 question – yes I’m getting tired of it!) just fine, thank you!
  • Food cravings: Really none – loving cheese, but not craving it.
  • Weight gain: 2 pounds
  • Baby’s heart rate: 160 beats per minute
  • Pregnancy symptoms: The last few weeks my symptoms have transitioned into having a sore back, a little bit of acid reflux but not bad at all, headaches, very easily annoyed {sorry in advance}, tire easily, dyslexia {is that a pregnancy symptom!?}. Overall I’m feeling really well, though!
  • Doctor’s appointments: Blood work this week, then 19-week ultrasound in mid-February, then a regular doctor’s appointment the following week.
  • Medical concerns: Microcephaly – our Mexico trip coincided with the very early part of my pregnancy and in case you’ve been living under a rock, the zika virus + pregnancy = very bad outcome for baby. I’m like 2% concerned that I am affected by zika because I don’t recall getting bitten by a mosquito, but we’ll find out after our ultrasound.
  • Highlights at this point: Getting a lot of energy back in the second trimester, starting to eat more normally, not getting up as much to go to the bathroom in the middle of the night.
  • What I’m excited for: Right now I’m really excited about finding out if we’re having a boy or a girl, feeling the babe wiggle around and actually looking pregnant to a stranger.
  • Downsides at this point: Having to sleep on my side now – I am not a side sleeper and it hasn’t exactly been the easiest transition. I’ve been in the “in between” stage where my regular clothes aren’t fitting nicely but I’m not nearly big enough for a lot of my maternity stuff yet, so nothing fits!
  • Things I miss: I really miss sleeping through the night and enjoying coffee.
  • Things we’ve done to prepare for baby: We started a baby shopping list and have picked out a lot of the nursery/big stuff we’d like, we’ve discussed our daycare intentions and my going back to work plan, found a birth and new parent support class and have gotten a few baby parenting books. We talk a lot, but we haven’t done anything tangible quite yet.
  • Name ideas: You’ll just have to wait! We’ve got a girl name picked out but our list of boy names is not as solid.
  • Nursery ideas: We’ve picked out nursery furniture, naturally from Pottery Barn, and we’re going with a light gray, white colors with either light pink/blue accents. We’re holding off on buying any baby stuff quite yet because of the limited space in our house.

The First Trimester Recap

I am now into my second trimester of pregnancy, which is pretty darn exciting! The first trimester wasn’t hard, per se, but it was more a period of adjustment and many mixed emotions.


{Not the slightest bit sad to be saying goodbye to the first trimester!}

My pregnancy was intentional {top question asked!}, happened very fast, and I knew I was pregnant before I had a confirmed pregnancy test. I had two negative pregnancy tests at home, but I just knew that they weren’t accurate. A trip to the doctor’s office confirmed my suspicions, but it was a really anticlimactic and honestly a disappointing way to find out I was pregnant.

Of course Alex and I were both really, really excited about the news that we are going to be parents. It was a lot to take in, though, given how we found out and how quickly it all happened. The fact that basically know one knew we were expecting and I sure didn’t look pregnant, plus in those first couple weeks I wasn’t feeling any pregnancy symptoms other than exhaustion didn’t help the cause. It was just strange and at that point wasn’t as exciting as I had expected it to be.

{Here I am... fresh after finding out I was pregnant.}

{Here I am… fresh after finding out I was pregnant.}

As the first weeks slowly went by, the news started to sink in a little more and things got more exciting – we saw the baby {more like the blob} on the ultrasound and got to see the heartbeat and had an encouraging doctor’s visit, we started sharing the news with more family and friends, and then one day, right around the start of my eleventh week, my belly started to grow. For me it was really that first day of seeing my belly starting to grow that made it seem more real.

{First ultrasound at 8 weeks!}

{First ultrasound at 8 weeks! For those who know how to read the ultrasound, I am tracking my weeks based on my cycle, which is a few days ahead of what the ultrasound is measuring.}

Relatively speaking, I think I’ve had a pretty normal first trimester. I’ve experienced sheer exhaustion, crazy nausea, unbelievable food aversions and a little bit of morning sickness. Thank heavens the morning sickness was very short-lived. The food aversions, on the other hand, were not. I have been eating so differently than I normally eat. Some of my usual favorite foods couldn’t be more unappealing to me right now {don’t even mention bacon or chicken… barf!!}. It’s pretty sad! Initially I had been craving sugary junk food, which is SO unlike me! My staple foods now consist of cheese {cottage cheese is the BEST!}, potatoes and yogurt. I am really loving bland, basic foods quite a bit.

{Second ultrasound at 13 weeks. So amazing to see the changes!}

{Second ultrasound at 13 weeks. So amazing to see the changes!}

Some of my favorite parts of the first trimester have been:

  • Finding out that several of my very good friends are also expecting babies this spring and summer. It has been so fun to go through the first stages of pregnancy with friends!
  • Sharing the news with family and friends. We’ve had some pretty enthusiastic reactions, funny questions and lots and lots of excitement. That’s been super fun.
  • Seeing Alex step up and take charge when I’ve been too tired or sick to do much of anything. He’s been an enormous help and I am most looking forward to seeing him as a dad.
  • Watching the progression and growth of the baby from my 8 week ultrasound to 13 weeks. It’s amazing that the baby’s organs and body is already fully formed!
{Eight weeks and starting to feel the symptoms of pregnancy... yuck!}

{Eight weeks hit and like clockwork, so did the morning sickness… yuck!}

Some of the worst parts of the first trimester have been:

  • Realizing that for the rest of my life I will perpetually worry about this little thing that is growing inside of me. There will never be a point in time where we’ll be “in the clear” about anything. That sobering reality hit me pretty quickly.
  • Spotting at week 6. I quickly called the on-call doctor who told me I was having a miscarriage. Just like that, no questions asked. Thankfully he was wrong, but we were on pins and needles for a week waiting for blood work to come back to confirm the pregnancy was still viable. That also made it hard to adjust to the thought of being pregnant.
  • Being in a constant state of nauseousness. The food aversions have been really strange and it’s sad to be so grossed out by food that I usually love.
  • This isn’t bad compared to the rest, but I’ve been having really unexpected insomnia. I get up for the second or third time in the night to go to the bathroom {the frequent trips to the bathroom hasn’t been fun either!} and then can’t get back to sleep at all.
{10 weeks and just starting to show! This was a really exciting day for me when things started to feel real. Throughout the whole first trimester I kept having this nagging question of "am I making this up!?" in the back of my head.}

{10 weeks and just starting to show! This was a really exciting day for me when things started to feel real. Throughout the whole first trimester I kept having this nagging question of “am I making this up!?” in the back of my head.}

Now that I’m into my second trimester, I am really looking forward to:

  • Continuing to dream about our future family with Alex and talk about the life we want for our little ones.
  • Starting prenatal Pilates {late January} and meeting some new preggos in that class and through my neighborhood mom’s group.
  • My bump growing!
  • Beginning the process of picking out baby stuff and furniture for the nursery.
  • Obviously meeting the babe, but I’m focusing on the now 😉