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33 Weeks!

There have been numerous occasions over the last three weeks where I didn’t ever expect we’d make it to 33 weeks, but here we are!

33 weeks

I’m still in the hospital and will remain here until we meet this little fella. Our latest plan includes the scheduled c-section on Monday June 6th. Unless he needs to be delivered sooner, June 6th will be the very end of the pregnancy for sure. Our most recent doctor said that will definitely be the end of the road and given the situation she doesn’t think that he would have any benefits inside past 34 weeks.

My last bit of news is that I did have the second course of the steroid shot, which helps mature the baby’s lungs and preps him for delivery, so at any time now, the steroid is at full-strength and ready to work. This is an extremely important outcome predictor and will greatly reduce his time in the NICU.

Our doctor yesterday mentioned that if we do, indeed, make it to 34 weeks for my scheduled c-section that the baby would likely only need to be in the intermediate nursery {lower level of care needed for baby than the level 4 NICU} for a few weeks – maybe even only one or two, and that I might be able to hold him right after he’s born!

We are still really optimistic that we can make it another week and a day before meeting this little boy. Here’s to him cooking for another 8 days!

A Week in the Hospital

I’ve officially been living in my hospital room for a week now {plus the 5 days I spent on my two previous admissions…….} and it’s looking like I’ve got about 2 more weeks to go. So yeah, it’s been a fun month of May so far!

Alex and I are extremely fortunate to be in such a great place and have the ability to rely on modern medicine and have a really good outlook for our situation. Still, though, it’s not been an easy last three weeks for our little family, but we’re making the best out of the hand we’ve been dealt.

Now that we’ve been here for so long we’ve been able to get into a rhythm at the hospital most days. That will soon change a bit with Alex planning to go back to work next week for a few hours a day, assuming the baby remains stable. We have plenty of things to keep us occupied and my time on the monitors also helps fill the day.

Alex’s parents were kind enough to come out to help us at home while we are being pulled away. Both of his parents are officially retired and they also have a golden retriever, so naturally, they were the right folks for the job. It has been really helpful having someone stay at the house to keep Jackson and Henry company and well-cared for, not to mention they both are unable to sit still so they’ve been cranking out projects left and right! {I’m hoping they’ll take some time for themselves to relax though! Hint, hint..} We are so appreciative of them coming out to help with the pets and our house.

We have SO loved the visitors who have stopped by the hospital – it’s nice to see familiar faces who aren’t coming in to poke me with another needle {or wiggle the IV needle profusely in my vein and then decide that another vein would be better}, ask if I’m constipated yet, or wake me up at 4 a.m. to take my blood pressure. Sorry, I love {most of} you nurses, just let me sleep for the love of god.

One of these days I’ll get to go back home again. While I’m learning there is a lot I took for granted, my home is not one of those things. I’m fairly certain that every morning when Alex and I are sitting down for breakfast we marvel in how proud we are of our home and how much we love it. Not being able to go home has been by far the hardest part of this journey. While I love adventures, traveling, and exploring, I’m definitely a homebody. It’s almost harder that our house is so close to the hospital – maybe they won’t notice if I sneak out?!

The constant ups and downs and changes of plans haven’t been easy, either, but we’re certainly adjusting to the ebbs and flows of this predicament. We’re opting to remain upbeat and ready for anything – we wouldn’t get through this situation any other way. We realize that we are in the backseat – make that the trunk – and have no control of the road we’re on. We can visualize the destination, but we don’t know how or when we’ll get there. All I can say is thank you, again, for all of the support and encouragement in this unexpected situation. We are SO fortunate to have so many terrific friends and family members.

D-Day

Today we got a new doctor {our “doctor” is whichever doctor happens to be on the floor at a given point in time – usually they rotate every few days, so we’ll have the same doctor for a few days and then a new doctor the next few days} and a new plan!

This new doctor seems less “optimistic” from the standpoint of us getting to 36 weeks and he said between 34-35 weeks is going to be the end of the line. That’s totally fine with us and is in line with what we’ve been expecting and hearing for the last week or so. This doctor actually went as far as suggesting we schedule a c-section date because, somehow, they are quite tricky to schedule. And it turns out he was right! I had 3 options to choose from the week of June 5th.

So, at this point, my scheduled c-section is Monday June 6th. And yes, it’s 6.6.16 and no, we don’t care. It’ll be easy to remember and I actually like the flow 🙂 I looked up the number 6 and its numerology story and it is actually a pretty cool number – my favorite is the Chinese “lucky number six” that means smooth and well-off, plus, mathematically speaking, 6 is a perfect number. Pretty nifty! And it is not only our potential “d-day” {delivery day} but it is actually d-day from the WWII sense.

Bear in mind that just because the 6th is our scheduled d-day doesn’t actually mean that’s when the baby will be born! It is simply a possibility. If he happens to hold out until that week we’ll possibly re-evaluate once we approach 34 weeks {which is on June 5} and it could potentially be postponed if he’s doing really well still. Any of my monitoring – the ultrasounds or heart rate monitoring – can trigger a delivery, too, so, while we have a scheduled date, it’s not a firm line in the sand.

This new doctor today wanted me to get the steroid shot again {this preps the baby’s lungs for delivery and helps them develop} right away since I’m able to have it again, so I did my second round of that today.

The doctors agree that the babe is still stable and showing signs that life in utero is still okay, so, for now, we wait. We’re still keeping busy at the hospital – I’ve had a different visitor every day and we’ve been working on a puzzle and both of us have been working remotely. We’ve found a few things on Netflix to watch during my monitoring sessions to help pass the time, as well. So, we’re hanging in there okay!

Ultrasound Results & What’s Next

We hit our next milestone today: the growth ultrasound! We received some very unexpected but fantastic results from the doctor: the baby grew and he grew at the rate he should have grown at!

Here’s the scoop:

  • Baby is still below the 1st percentile and always will be unless he grows at a rate that is faster than the “expected” growth rate.
  • The ultrasound measured that the baby made adequate interval growth, meaning he grew 2 weeks of growth in 2 weeks time, which is what the doctors would expect a baby to make.
  • While the levels of cord flow resistance are still elevated, today they’re not seeing an absence or reversal of the cord flow, which is extremely good news, as well.
  • The ultrasound estimates that the baby weighs 2 pounds 13 ounces today.
  • There is a 10-20% margin of error in ultrasounds…

What all this means:

  • Baby can keep cooking away for a while longer!
  • The doctor was extremely encouraged by the ultrasound today, in particular, his growth and the fact that the cord flow is stable and not worsening.
  • The regular heart rate monitoring that I do several times a day will continue to be the primary source of monitoring and ensuring that the baby is doing okay inside. I have been having more regular contractions and baby does not like them, so he’s been having more drops in his heart rate, but the recoveries after the drops and the time in between drops are still looking good enough to keep him in there for now. The heart rate monitor could only send me to delivery if he had a major drop and wasn’t recovering, or if the monitoring strip is trending in a negative direction, but that would be less of an emergent situation.
  • Our doctor said that at her practice she is one of the most conservative doctors and takes the least amount of risks and it is her intention to keep this baby inside for as long as possible. She’s even thinking at this point we could make it past 34 weeks if things continue to look so good.
  • Because the doctor thinks the baby might stay inside longer she is going to hold off on administering the second round of the steroid {which preps the baby’s lungs for delivery} until either we make the call for delivery or until the end of the window in which the steroid can be administered {has to be before 35 weeks}. This is really good news because it means she doesn’t expect he will be arriving soon.

We are extremely happy with the results of the ultrasound. If we could make it to 34 weeks or beyond that would be absolutely incredible for the baby! And at 34 or 35 weeks, we could avoid the NICU potentially, and the baby could simply spend some time in the intermediate nursery until he gains a little weight and masters eating.

With all of the great news, we also talked to the doctor about Alex being able to spend less time at the hospital. Alex has been unbelievably supportive in this situation and has slept here in my room every night and stayed for most of the day every day to be with me. The doctor was really confident in the baby’s monitorings and overall stability and said that Alex can definitely have a longer leash away from the hospital. He’s going to try to figure out a balance of home, hospital and work now, and will start going into work between my morning and afternoon monitoring and be able to have a little more sanity. I’ll take one for the team and hang out at the hospital until the kiddo arrives, though 😉

Next milestones:

  • Sunday {May 29th}: 33 weeks
  • Monday {May 30th}: next biophysical profile ultrasound {measures cord flow}
  • Sunday {June 5th}: 34 weeks — could we have a June baby after all!?!

Getting Ready for Baby Allen

After the craziness of finding out we’re going to meet our little boy sooner than expected, one of the first things we tried to focus on was making sure we were physically ready for him to arrive. Thankfully we had been really on top of things from the get-go.

{August and Oliver came over to give some of our baby gear a test run... thankfully they approved of the play mat!}

{August and Oliver came over to give some of our baby gear a test run… thankfully they approved of the play mat!}

It was helpful to have several of our family members coming out for my baby shower in April to have that as a goal to have the nursery somewhat assembled. Our extremely generous family and friends threw us three baby showers – one back in Minnesota, and two out here in Seattle – and we received so many thoughtful gifts that have been quite helpful in making sure we’ve got all of the things we need.

{My mountain-themed shower!}

{My mountain-themed shower! hosted by my friend from work, Cate}

{My last baby shower was so sweet - baby Allen and I are so lucky!}

{My last baby shower was so sweet – baby Allen and I are so lucky!}

We received a ton of baby clothes {thank you!} and were quite well stocked up, but it was mainly with 6-12 month stuff. I was okay with that because it meant I got to pick out all of the sizes we were missing. It has been SO fun shopping for cute little outfits and getting to pick out the things I want to dress this kiddo in.

Our list of “needs” changed a little bit once we found out that our babe would be super tiny, so I got us stocked up on preemie diapers and bought a bunch of newborn size clothes, a few preemie onesies and even preemie bottle nipples. I hadn’t focused much on my postpartum recovery needs, but those should mostly be taken care of now, as well.

The baby’s nursery is so close to being completely done! We’re really only waiting on receiving the rug {which comes today and Alex’s parents will lay it out for us} and then eventually I’ll order a few more little decorative pieces to keep the focus on the mountain theme. Both of us adore how the nursery has come together. It’s such a bright and calming space and we’re so excited to bring our little guy home and show him his room.

{This darn chair has been the biggest pain EVER. This is chair #2. We are awaiting chair #3 now. It's a gorgeous, amazingly comfy chair, but the first one arrived not only defective but in the wrong color, and the second one arrived in the wrong color, so we're hoping 3's the charm.}

{This darn chair has been the biggest pain EVER. This is chair #2. We are awaiting chair #3 now. It’s a gorgeous, amazingly comfy chair, but the first one arrived not only defective but in the wrong color, and the second one arrived in the wrong color, so we’re hoping 3’s the charm.}

I think we’re pretty much all set with everything we need to take this little munchkin home after he is big and strong enough to leave the hospital.

I’ll take a better picture of the whole nursery once I’m home from the hospital and we get the new rug in. It’s pretty darn cute, though!

Monitoring, NICU & Not Much News

We’ve made it to 32 weeks and 2 days! I don’t have any major updates today, mostly just little ones…

{I'm fairly certain I look more pregnant in this photo than in reality... even one of the nurses last night came in and said "gosh, you hardly look pregnant" mmmm thanks you can leave now!}

{I’m fairly certain I look more pregnant in this photo than in reality… even one of the nurses last night came in and said “gosh, you hardly look pregnant” mmmm thanks you can leave now!}

I haven’t had an ultrasound since the weekend – the next one is the big growth ultrasound tomorrow. This will measure how much the baby has grown in the last 2 weeks, as well as check his amniotic fluid levels and the cord flow. A decision to deliver could be made tomorrow if there was no growth or if the cord flow is “reverse” meaning that the blood flow through the cord is reversing in direction.

As of last night I’m on a more rigorous monitoring schedule. Initially I was hooked up to the heart rate monitor three times a day for about 40 minutes each session to take a look at how the baby is doing. Starting Sunday afternoon he has had many more decelerations {“drops”} in his heart rate than before and they’ve started to align with my contractions. He’s now having a drop about every hour or two, sometimes more. Honestly, we woke up this morning, still hooked up to the monitor, expecting the doctor to come in and tell me it was time to go to the operating room because he had so many drops overnight {which also meant we slept not at all!}.

Instead, she said that while he is having more drops, the time in between the drops he’s still looking great and not seeming to be stressed out and he’s making really good recoveries {his heart rate jumps back up to normal fairly quickly} most of the time. She said she’s being cautiously optimistic and really still hopes he’ll stay in there for another week. I’m not really expecting that he’ll stay put for a week, but I suppose it’s possible and we’ll learn more tomorrow with the ultrasound.

In related news, Alex and I toured the NICU yesterday. There is one floor of the NICU where it’s truly the intensive care unit, and depending on when our little peanut arrives, he could go there for a while. They also have an intermediate level nursery where the babies are moved when they simply need time to grow and learn to eat. It was really nice to get a tour of the space so we can visualize it as we mentally prepare for our NICU baby.

I finally got my consultation with the neonatologist on Sunday and that was really helpful. He explained to me that 32 weeks is such a magical gestational age to get to because at that point the survival rate and long-term complication rate becomes the same as with a full-term baby. He told me to expect the baby to stay in the NICU until his due-date {so mid-July} and that he’ll be on a feeding tube and it’s possible he’ll need some help with breathing. The longer he stays in utero the shorter his NICU stay will be and the fewer interventions they’ll need to do.

We are starting to talk about hypothetical plans for how we’ll deal with having a baby in the NICU for what could be 6-8 weeks. It’s not going to be easy, but we’ll make it work. We’re anticipating having me spend most mornings/early afternoons there, then going home and eventually having dinner with Alex and then going back together to visit the babe and then sleeping at home. We are so fortunate that the hospital is so close to our house! There will be an enormous amount of going back and forth to and from the hospital to visit the little guy and deliver milk to the nurses for him, but I’m sure we’ll get in a groove pretty quickly. It’s going to be strange to go back home without bringing a baby with us, though.

Right now it’s our plan that once the baby arrives I’ll officially stop working {probably until October} and then Alex will go back to work once I go home from the hospital and am able to move around on my own, then he’ll take his paternity leave as soon as the baby comes home, hopefully through Labor Day, and then he plans on taking the rest of his leave around the holidays. Alex’s work has been extremely supportive of the situation and both of us have been working remotely from the hospital when time allows.

Alex and I are doing fine and hanging in there. We’ve still got plenty to do and our room seems to have a revolving door on it, so there’s constantly someone in here. Technology is an enormous help in this situation – we’ve been watching Netflix during my monitoring to take the edge off of it and we’ve used InstaCart to get Whole Foods meals delivered, as well as Uber Eats to get a celebratory dinner delivered to commemorate making it to 32 weeks on Sunday.

Thanks again for all of the encouragement and love! We are so fortunate to have so many family members and friends by our side during this really strange time.

32 Weeks!

We hit our first milestone: 32 weeks!

I don’t have a huge update today – mostly little things. We’ve had almost 48 hours of really solid monitoring – all day yesterday the baby looked fantastic on the monitors. He had really nice accelerations and a very good baseline heart rate.

31w6d

Today I had an ultrasound, which was the standard biophysical profile {BPP} scan that I’ve been having twice a week. I’m not sure what his score was on the BPP, I assume 8 out of 8, but they never told us today. The good news that we got was that there was not an absence of cord flow today and the level of resistance in the cord flow was down from where it was on Friday. These are both good things, but they really don’t mean that much. The resistance level in the cord flow is still elevated, just not as much as it was last time they did the ultrasound, and we know that there is an intermittent absence of cord flow, but it wasn’t absent at the time of the ultrasound today.

Our next milestone is the growth ultrasound, which is now taking place on Wednesday. It’ll be a long ultrasound and they’ll measure all of the different parts of the baby’s body to determine how much growth has occurred since his last growth ultrasound, which would have been two weeks prior.

The doctor explained to us that there are definitely nutrients getting to the baby, but there’s simply an intermittent absence of them getting transferred. She is expecting to see some growth on Wednesday, but not a full two-weeks worth. This ultrasound will also check the cord flow.

32weeks

It’s quite possible that the ultrasound on Wednesday will send me to the delivery room. Another possibility is that they’ll be happy with a little growth and then have me get the second round of steroid shots {for baby’s lung development} on Thursday and Friday and hold off and deliver on Saturday or later. Or, if while I’m hooked up to the monitors, baby’s heart rate drops and doesn’t recover he’ll be delivered immediately. I’m hoping for one of the first two scenarios, as they’re less of a crisis!

Our upcoming milestones:

  • Wednesday {May 25} – growth ultrasound
  • Thursday {May 26} – second round of steroids can start
  • Saturday {May 28} – steroids will be at full-strength
  • Sunday {May 29} – 33 weeks

We’re really doing just fine here and in the situation. Somehow the stress level is fairly low – we’ve both adjusted to this reality and we’re mentally prepared for pretty much anything at this point. My blood pressure is back down to normal, which is great because that helps with the baby’s cord flow.

Alex snuck back home for a few hours to hang out with Henry cat and do a few things around the house and freshen up our clothing supply at the hospital. We’re looking forward to Alex’s dad coming out to help us with the pets and our house this week. We ordered a bunch of Whole Foods prepared meals and had them delivered, so we’re fine on food {and we’ve managed to avoid hospital food!}, too. The time passes really fast during the day – there’s always someone in and out of the room and both of us are trying to catch up on work stuff to be able to leave things nicely for our colleagues. I’ve got a stack of magazines and books on my table that I haven’t even touched yet! So, we’re hanging in there…

Baby Allen Update

We are on day 15 of a rollercoaster ride with our little babe right now. Just over two weeks ago, I/the baby was diagnosed with Intrauterine Growth Restriction {IUGR}, which means that there is something causing him to not grow properly. Our baby is currently below the first percentile for his size. In the early days after the diagnosis the doctors were trying to figure out what was going on and determine the threshold for when he would be safer inside my uterus versus outside in the world. I underwent a ton of testing and monitoring and spent 5 of those days in the hospital. The doctors finally have something to go off of now.

Yesterday at my regular check-up the ultrasound picked up some changes in the resistance of the umbilical cord flow. This is called “absent intermittent end diastolic flow” and it means that sometimes there is an absence of flow between the placenta and the baby. Because of this change, I have been admitted to the hospital indefinitely – likely until I deliver the baby.

The doctors want me to be on more continuous heart rate monitoring {of the baby} to make sure that his heart rate is stable and he’s still content inside. They are looking for him to have a normal baseline heart rate, but also for his heart rate to have accelerations, which happen when he is moving around. If he was too lethargic to move around he wouldn’t have the accelerations and that would become a cause for concern.

31w5d

Last night while I was being monitored the baby had a major drop in his heart rate and it took him 6 minutes to recover {that is a long time}. This caused an emergency situation – I ended up on an IV and oxygen within the first 2 minutes and getting sent over to labor and delivery for an emergency c-section. Thankfully while we were en route to the OR the baby recovered and I avoided that situation. I spent the following 14 hours immobile and hooked up to the monitors making sure he was still okay. We almost met our kiddo yesterday evening!

Aside from that big drop, right now, the baby is showing us that he’s still able to thrive inside and that he’s still stable. There are a lot of signs, though, that say that the time where the threshold will shift and he’ll be born is approaching. I’m currently 31 weeks and 6 days pregnant and 34 weeks seems to be the end of the line at the absolute latest. And yes, every day really does count.

Some upcoming milestones:

  • Tomorrow {May 22} – 32 weeks gestation!
  • Tuesday {May 24} – growth ultrasound
  • Thursday {May 26} – a second round of steroids for the baby {these help with lung development}
  • Saturday {May 28} – steroids will be at full-strength

It would be fantastic if we could hit all of these milestones because every day that the baby stays inside is a great day. Sometime between 32 and 34 weeks, though, the doctors will determine that they can create a better environment for the baby in an incubator than my uterus can right now.

Causes for delivery:

  • Another heart rate drop without recovery {emergency c-section}
  • No growth measured on the ultrasound on Tuesday
  • A change to “reverse cord flow” on any ultrasounds
  • ????

Once the call to delivery is made, it will happen extremely fast, except for maybe if he doesn’t grow, then we may get a little bit more of a “planned” c-section scenario. The doctors are not ready for him to be born yet, but once I cross the 32 week mark I think they’ll have less risk tolerance for keeping him inside. After the baby is born he’ll spend some time in the NICU because he’ll be premature and tiny. I’m waiting to get a consultation from a neonatologist, hopefully today, to talk to me about some of the things we can expect with a NICU baby.

We don’t know where we are on this rollercoaster ride, but I have a feeling that parenthood is just going to be a continuation of it! Maybe we’ll never get off?

Stay tuned for more updates…

Baby Allen @ 31 Weeks

 

The last 10 days or so have been an unbelievable whirlwind with baby Allen. He got diagnosed with IUGR {Intrauterine Growth Restriction} which is basically a blanket diagnosis that means he’s really small but we aren’t sure why.

I have undergone an enormous amount of testing and monitoring and spent five of the last seven days in the hospital, but as of today, we and the doctors are really confident that this little guy is safe and content on the inside still.

{Today's NST}

{Today’s NST}

Here’s what’s going on at this point:

  • Baby Allen is extremely small – he is in the first percentile for his size right now.
  • The doctors haven’t figured out what is causing his growth restriction. It’s likely got to do with placenta insufficiency, but they haven’t found anything concrete to go off of yet.
  • For the rest of my pregnancy I will have to have twice weekly non-stress tests {NSTs} and biophysical profile {BPPs} ultrasound scans.
  • The non-stress tests measure the baby’s heart rate. The doctors want to see periods of higher heart rates {“accelerations”} to demonstrate that the baby is happy and content. Today’s NST showed four really, really solid accelerations, and the nurse explained that if the placenta wasn’t providing enough and he wasn’t happy that he would be too lethargic to move around {that causes the HR acceleration}, so the accelerations were really encouraging.
  • During a few of our baby’s past NSTs he had drops in his heart rate which could easily be from him rolling over on the umbilical cord. We’ve learned that the recovery from a deceleration is an extremely important part of how they determine if he’s truly stressed, and it seems like our little guy has always had really strong, solid recoveries even when his heart rate dropped.
  • The biophysical profile {BPPs} ultrasounds measure five things: baby’s amniotic fluid levels, the cord flow, baby’s tone {if he’s flexing his muscles and making slight movements}, large movements {3 are required} and practice breathing. Right now, his fluid levels look good, but the cord flow is showing a little bit of restriction, so they’re monitoring that closely.
  • The baby is currently in the breech position so we’re hoping he flips to be head down so I don’t need a c-section.
  • Once the baby’s fluid levels or cord flow levels drop or if the doctors determine he is getting stressed, a delivery will happen. The same goes for a stagnation in growth, which is measured bi-weekly with a special growth ultrasound {different from the BPP ultrasound}. My next growth ultrasound is next Tuesday.
  • We got a new-found sense of confidence today that making it to 36 or 37 weeks gestation is a real possibility at this point.
  • No matter when the baby is born at this point, the survival rate is extremely high and complications with the baby are extremely low. Our hospital has a level 3 NICU {highest care possible} and is able to provide top-notch care for him to continue to develop if needed. My doctor was confident, though, that if he made it to 36 weeks that he may avoid a stay in the NICU all together!!

To say we’ve had a stressful week would be an extreme understatement. Now that we’re home from the hospital and received SUCH encouraging news from today’s appointment we are starting to calm down a bit. It’s really tough living in 3 day increments – we can’t plan anything past Friday morning’s appointment because that could be another hospital stay for monitoring or a delivery. At this point in this situation we are pretty much prepared for anything.

Our focus {for the next 3 days 🙂 } is keeping me calm {spa day on Thursday!}, pumping my body full of nutrients, particularly protein and water, and making sure our house is ready for this little boy to come home to.

Thank you again to our family and friends for the wonderful support. We are so grateful for the encouragement and positive vibes.

Latest Hospital Adventure

These last five days have been quite the rollercoaster, with most of them spent in the hospital. Since mid-evening on Friday, baby Allen has been super stable and has demonstrated that he’s happy and content via heart rate monitoring and a biophysical profile ultrasound this morning. The doctors were confident enough in his stability to send us home today!

{Hooked up to the monitors...}

{Hooked up to the monitors…}

The “plan” for going forward is twice weekly non-stress tests {NST} and biophysical profile {BPP} ultrasounds. These tests measure his heart rate, movement and fluid levels and make sure that he’s still safe on the inside. I’ll have another growth ultrasound around May 25th to make sure he’s still growing in there. If at any point during this next testing/monitoring period where baby’s heart rate drops I’ll likely get sent over for additional monitoring again. If and when the BPP is questionable or suggests that the fluid levels or the cord flow is being depleted, or if he stops growing, then the conversation of delivery will come up and likely be imminent. And if during the NSTs his heart rate drops significantly and has trouble recovering, that would/could constitute an emergency delivery. And for the record, at this point the kiddo is in in the breech position, which naturally constitutes a c-section, so that’s the delivery we are mentally preparing for.

At this point, we are taking things one day at a time, but we’re also holding out hope that this little guy can stay happy inside for another few weeks still. There were truly a few moments this weekend where we and the doctors thought we were going to be meeting him right away, but we are very thankful that did not happen. It is my absolute hope that we won’t find ourselves in an emergency delivery situation and that we’ll have even an hour before heading to the operating room. But, either way, we’ve come to terms with the difficult situation that we’ve found ourselves in.

We are so thankful for the care we’ve received here in the hospital and we really appreciate the diligence of the doctors here. While there were some moments of frustration on our part, wondering if they were being overly cautious and keeping us here unnecessarily {it’s possible that the heart rate drops were simply due to the baby laying on his umbilical cord}, we do value how much they care. Being in the hospital is a naturally stressful environment and the constant ups and downs didn’t make it any easier, but our nurses were really reassuring of overall how great the baby looked on the monitor, so that helped us keep our confidence up.

We are also extremely grateful for how many people are rooting for our little peanut and for the kind, consideration over the last several days. Thank you for all of the support!

{SO thankful to be going home today!}

{SO thankful to be going home today!}

For now, we’re looking forward to being home and getting rejuvenated. My priorities for the time-being are on making sure I’m passing as many good nutrients onto this kiddo as I can, staying calm and relaxed and getting the chance to finalize our physical preparations around the house.